Friday, February 25, 2005 / Friday, February 25, 2005
haha...juz finished playing bb at wawa hse...with poOn! and of cuz the fat soul living there..a.k.a bihua...hahaha... cant imagine she's been rotting at hme for these 3 mths...duno is she fortunate or wad...poor us..had to slog out all this while...
wah...saw my last entry..haha..found it so scary...haiz...perhaps i cant explain myself too...anyway... its a different me today...felt so relieved... that thing had been laying at my hse for a few weeks le... finally...it left me yesterday....erm...well...tts definitely good....haha....at least i am not so undecisive abt giving it away anymore...
duno why i did that...haha...upon finishing it...found myself so hilarious...though as confusing as i am...i am glad i finished it...first time got so much determination to do something...heez...haha...guess i still cant let go...wad the...haiz..
haiz...well...sad thing now is cin not with us now..its beem a long time since me cin poon and wa met up together le...cant forget the times when we were crapping around in the lib workroom...stealing jeffrey's choco..and his cookies...haha....it was realli fun....the workroom is juz a our second home...no matter wad time our lessons end...we will always be there straight away...haiz...miss the times....
kkz...mon is the big day...haha...thought is today collect the result....kinda disappointed...cuz the anxiety in us is going to grow..haiz...troubled for u...dun be pessimistic...promise me u will look on the bright side of life...and i believe u can and u will do well...we believe in u...even if u dun believe in urself...will always be there for ya...and sorry for all the harsh words i said to u...
wah sian...heard must wear school uniform back to collect results xia...duno where i put that le...haiz...hopefully the school wun chase us away if we are not in sch u...haha...like funni leh...hehe....poon says we will look like overgrown kids...haha...quite true...heez...juz cant stop laughing...
hey...friends...esp to winnie the pooh gang : poon wa cin and me! hehez...great to have ya guys aroung..no matter hw down i am...i am still glad upon knowin u gals are there...heez...of cuz..not forgettin...all my frens...too long to list.............haha...u know who u r la....take care peepz..those in 3 mths..my bros...and those whom i had nt seen for somehw a decade..haha..
Monday, February 07, 2005 / Monday, February 07, 2005
anyone...juz dun provoke me at this point of time..i might juz go crazy...happiness is shortlived...i definately agree with it...but wads most impt is whether its realli true happiness anot...well...it doesnt matter anyway now..
felt so retarded...nv felt like tt b4...wads happening xia...hope its all a dream...at least the pain inflicted on me is not so realistic...i guess i had enough...duno wad the hack did i do wrong to make me deserve all these sufferings...
guess wad..i am gona put everything down...though i am actualli feeling so much pain and disappointment in me...haha...wad can i do xia...face it of cuz...since i cant change it...wel...think i am dangerous person now..so dun cum near me..includin my close frenz and budz...cuz i might juz throw my temper at u..and u noe tts the thing tt i dun ever wish to happen...so..juz leave me alone..if u guys care...
i am realli getting tired...tired of thinkin abt things...e future...os results...everything..its juz like i feel so emotionless...ppl...dun ask me why i am feeling so pissed nowadays..cuz i guess i dun even have that bit of energy to spill out my thoughts... its juz so tiring...and its gona piss me further off..sorry if i have to say tt..
ya...so...haha...basically u r juz listenin to a living robot...work..go hme slp..next day...same routine..tts my life for nw...guess i am more relax durin night time..these few days..ppl keep dragging me to pub..haha..dun even hav tt energy to reject..i am juz so lazy...ya..drink..at least sorrows can be washed away with it...i am gona be independent..cuz i guess the oni person i can trust is myself...not gona let ppl take care of me..its juz stressing me out..its no big deal anyway..even if i drink myself to death..guess it isnt as painful as i am feelin right nw...
trying so hard to force tt smile i always had out...but it seems as though my face is gona crack...wadever it is.. i am gona recover...though its been a few yrs...but i hope to see my medicine in my vison...hope it will get to me b4 i get to suffer frm heartaches..i wonder why this kinda pain keep inflicting on me...over and over again...is this fair to me?